Stress has been getting me. Getting me in ways i haven't had before, or that has felt this acute. i wake up scared. i have nightmares. i feel depression weighing on me. Once or twice a day it feels hard to breathe, just too much weight on my back and chest and shoulders.
Not sure how to proceed. i've made the kinds of errors and choices that put an end to potential dreams, and has truly affected my quality of life. i worry about what happens if i make choices now that will intentionally hurt myself. Fall-out of my own making. i feel irradiated by this. Marked for life and disfigured.
Riding this out is necessary but hard. i have to take the blows and responsibility for the outcome, but it hurts physically, emotionally and mentally.
Not sure how to proceed. i've made the kinds of errors and choices that put an end to potential dreams, and has truly affected my quality of life. i worry about what happens if i make choices now that will intentionally hurt myself. Fall-out of my own making. i feel irradiated by this. Marked for life and disfigured.
Riding this out is necessary but hard. i have to take the blows and responsibility for the outcome, but it hurts physically, emotionally and mentally.
